“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Control and worry. Control and worry. These are two issues I always fight no matter how many times I tell myself to calm down and let go. I get myself all worked up into a “tizzy” until someone – usually my husband – helps me see that everything will be fine, and I’m thinking too hard.
In 2007, my first marriage ended. Until that day that all was “final,” I tried with every ounce of my being to “fix it.” I just knew that I could make everything right. I was wrong. On some of my days of clarity, I would tell myself, “You can’t fix it, so why try?” That was my mantra. It was my way of giving it all up to God and letting Him take care of me.
But we as humans have trouble with this concept. Let someone else handle it? No way! We can take care of it! We’re good, smart people! We know what’s best! Right?
Well, according to Jeremiah 29:11, God is who knows what’s best for us. Sure, we understand that we should eat our veggies and fruits, exercise, avoid the people who bring us down. We know the basics of what’s right for us. But none of us are mind-readers or fortune tellers. There’s no way to know what comes next.
That’s how I felt in the 2 years leading up to 2007. I had no clue what lay ahead, but I just felt certain that I needed everything to go back to the way it was. I had been happy that way once; surely, that was the way things needed to be.
Thank goodness I finally let go and allowed God to take control. I listened to the wise people He put in my path. I paid attention to the doors that He was swinging open for me.
And what happened? A year and a half later, I met my husband – the man of my dreams – and the answer to every prayer. Had I continued to try to control my situation, I wouldn’t be in this beautiful, happy place I find myself now.
When I can learn to let go, to have faith that God knows what’s best and means me no harm, then my life seems to flow better and sweeter.
**Thanks to Felicia for the reminder of this verse. You are a strong, beautiful woman who knows the power of faith.**