Matthew 6:27

And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?

So, clearly, I currently have a theme. There’s a lot of anxiety swirling around in my head about multiple issues:

When will my baby sleep through the night?
Were we right to go ahead and start him on some solids?
Will my daughter get off the bus and report a good or bad day?
Will I ever move toward the administrative side of my job?

Thing is, I know I’m not the only person who also struggles with anxiety. It’s the same idea as the control problem – because we think we can fix it ourselves, we mull and worry and ponder and FREAK OUT!

In general, I have trouble getting past the freak out point. My family laughs when they see the mounds of books I have on one topic. Last night, as I was worrying about something out loud, my husband calmly said, “It’s not worth worrying about. It’ll all be fine.”

Boy is he right. And I know this, which makes me even MORE annoyed and anxious. I know what I’m SUPPOSED to do – let go. Trust. Have faith.

As the Bible verse says, worrying is not going to add any time to my life. In fact, the time that I spend worrying is going to actually DELETE time from my life – and time is so precious these days. My baby is growing so quickly – why rush him in the sleeping and eating arenas? My daughter is a strong little girl – she can hold her own on the bus (and needs to learn how to deal with conflict). My job will work out when and how it’s supposed to and at the right time.

I type these sentences KNOWING that I’m not going to be perfect and abide by the calm vibes I’m sending myself. But the key is that I can remind myself that God has it in control, I’m not in charge, and life is still going on around me even if I’m sitting and worrying my head over the menial issues.

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